Read how David works through the pain of his betrayal.
The LORD is my light and my salvation— whom shall I fear? The LORD is the stronghold of my life— of whom shall I be afraid? When evil men advance against me to devour my flesh, when my enemies and my foes attack me, they will stumble and fall. Though an army besiege me, my heart will not fear; though war break out against me, even then will I be confident. One thing I ask of the LORD, this is what I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the LORD and to seek him in his temple. For in the day of trouble he will keep me safe in his dwelling; he will hide me in the shelter of his tabernacle and set me high upon a rock. Then my head will be exalted above the enemies who surround me; at his tabernacle will I sacrifice with shouts of joy; I will sing and make music to the LORD. Psalm 27: 1- 6
If I listen carefully to what David’s saying, I think I can hear a confidence that’s trying to convince itself to remain confident (particularly verses 4-6). It’s as if David’s praying, “God, I wish you’d give me clear assurance that you will actually take care of me.” I love this because it’s like David’s saying – “God, I’m pretty sure you have my back. I’m pretty sure I have nothing to fear. I’m pretty sure you will turn this whole thing around.” Can you relate? I can. I completely relate with a “sort-of-kind-of-but-not-yet-convinced” brand of confidence in God. I can relate to wanting more assurances from God than just His promise to be good. The Psalms are awesome because they show us how we can honestly process our way through a wide range of emotions with God